I’m thinking about clarity and succinctness and where our thoughts come from
Are we to be continually reacting to the world,
In a continual state of flux I bounce off walls I can’t see
Swayed by honourable decent things one time and then swayed by money and power and fame and
sometimes positively indecent things
Swayed by the popular perception
and sometimes by petty feelings
It is so hard to keep track or ever even know what is innate
What if every aspiration is conditioning and as changeable?
What and where is our internal map,
is there any?
What gives life direction,
What gives action direction
Which feelings and emotions are justified
And what feeds this body and mind
Is it a simple case of what goes in , goes out?
How can one live in any situation and learn to be at peace with you?
When is action informed, how do you know that your actions are informed?
I am beyond playing roles assigned to me by people
Now it’s just my own roles
How do I see myself in this play that my mind creates for itself
When it comes to a frenzy inside me it’s so easy to just shut it off
How do I then create a balance between my mind and the other place, the other way of being that isn’t this mind
all of this is hilariously funny
If I were to transcribe all the differing voices in my head it would be quite a schizophrenic pandemonium
And all this while there is this external other world
If I am not out to lunch who is?