My friend told me about surrender and I realized I was going about it the wrong way.
Needless to say surrender is a word that’s so misunderstood that it has a space of it’s own in the trite corner.
Back to my friend, not only do I have one but she’s real. Not real versus imaginary, but real in having shown up with egg on her face and bad smells and financial hell and poor relationships and then picking herself back up and showing up all battered and bruised. She’s real in that she’s trying to step out of our magazine worlds, our ‘playing house’ narratives of ourselves and moving from romanticized and unreal people to emulate to being her real self. A bit like we were in school. With a lack of pretense and artifice as we didn’t know any other way to be.
So back to Surrender. Apparently it’s a real thing too. And something that is a good condiment in wanting to be a complete person and not a romanticized version of oneself.In the seesaw of life , or in the 360 degree circle that makes up the doing of an action and starting another , surrender is an end point. An end point in a circle.
Back to going about it the wrong way, I’d met Megha’s friend Surrender, but it was the surrender of books , or of Films based on classical literature. In surrendering it was a troubled Jane Eyre who found Edward Rochester ,an Elizabeth Bennet who found Mr Darcy and the guy who was searching for the meaning of life and went around the world looking it , to give-up and come home and see it in a drop of rain. My take-away from those stories was if you surrendered then you achieved your goal.
But the point of Surrender when it is a friend, is that to surrender Is the goal and that is the whole point. That is where it ends. Surrender is then the end point of effort . It may or may not be the prequel to a goal but that has nothing to do with us.
I see you nodding your head and tsk-ing. Even I’ve read abbreviated guides to The Bhagwad Gita and know that was what Arjun was advised by his lofty charioteer. ‘The fruits of your actions do not belong to you’.
But hearing and knowing are different things.
कर्मण्येवाधिकारस्ते मा फलेषु कदाचन | मा कर्मफलहेतुर्भूर्मा ते सङ्गोऽस्त्वकर्मणि || 47 || karmaṇy-evādhikāras te mā phaleṣhu kadāchana mā karma-phala-hetur bhūr mā te saṅgo ’stvakarmaṇi